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Pain Is Weakness Leaving the Body: A Marine's Unbecoming
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ISBN13: 9781645037095
Publisher: Bold Type Books
Published: Nov 1 2022
Pages: 304
Weight: 1.10
Height: 1.70 Width: 6.20 Depth: 8.70
Language: English
An honest reckoning with the war on terror, masculinity, and the violence of American hegemony abroad, at home, and on the psyche, from a veteran whose convictions came undone
When Lyle Jeremy Rubin first arrived at Marine Officer Candidates School, he was convinced that the war on terror was necessary to national security. He also subscribed to a strict code of manhood that military service conjured and perpetuated. Then he began to train and his worldview shattered. Honorably discharged five years later, Rubin returned to the United States with none of his beliefs, about himself or his country, intact.
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